Online Dating

So after my friends telling me I should get myself out there not to necessarily meet the ‘love of my life’ but to get used to the idea of dating again, I decided to join Tinder. It’s taken me days to pluck up the courage to do it (I know my ex has been on …

I Feel So Alive!

There are so many things in my head right now, first of all it’s so eerily quiet walking home after work. It’s better than the usual idiots threatening me or slowing their cars down at the side of me but it’s just so different.. I’m glad I have work though because it’s some sort of …

So This Is Loneliness…

I’ve just cried my stupid heart out and I honestly have no idea where it came from. I can’t cope with all these changes like I can no longer go to therapy and a phone-call won’t suffice due to the type of therapy. I now have to carry a letter around with me and my …

This Is As Real As It Gets

This is possibly one of the hardest things I’ll ever write. Even now after much thought I sit here with my heart racing and that awful anxious feeling I get when something is about to fuck up. This time it won’t, because I have nothing left to lose. I always thought dwelling on how I …

I Won’t Be Told

Tomorrow is one of the days I despise - Mother’s Day. It’s a made up day just like Valentine’s Day, except selfish mothers feel they have the right to demand love and attention. It makes me feel bad for the men who have grown up with such mothers who don’t know how to love and …

Obsessions

Is it true people with autism tend to get obsessed with things? Yup. Pretty much. Mine has always been obsessions with food and music! If I don’t get a particular food I’m craving then nothing satisfies me and I’m lucky I have people in my life who accommodate that, but I always tend to forget …

The Reason I Jump

I’ve just read one of the most profound books. The Reason I Jump is about a nonverbal boy with autism, the author at the time of writing was only 13 years old. He goes in to depth about autism and the way people treat him and the way people treat autism in general. It perfectly …